As you can see, I've changed my blog. Background, title, everything really. As much I love the whole "going green" movement, I felt I wasn't doing enough "green" stuff to title my blog after it. I still eat organic whenever I can. I recycle. I grow my own veggies. I compost. Blah, blah, blah. But it doesn't really define who I am. It's just something I believe in.
I chose the new name because I feel that's all I have been doing since we got on this TTC rollercoaster. I've either been waiting to see if *this* will be the month, or if *this* doctor's appointment will shed some light on our situation, or if *this* trick will help us get pregnant, and well, this list could go on. To be honest, I am SICK of waiting. I want a baby so bad I can taste it.
I hear these awful stories on tv about women who kidnap babies and try to pretend like they are theirs. I start to sympathize with these women. What if they are like me and have been trying so long that they go crazy and see a baby and just take it? I know the difference between me and them is that I am not crazy. Not yet anyway. But when did they cross that line? When did they go from baby-crazed to "that crazy lady who stole a baby? What made them snap? What pushed them over the edge?
So many questions. So few answers.
Don't worry. You won't be seeing me in the news anytime soon.
5 years ago