No, I’m not pregnant.

But I’m still having some crazy dreams.  

I’m definitely coming down with something though.  I’ve got a sore throat.  My head hurts and feels like a watermelon.  I have a slight fever.  Basically I just feel like a big steaming pile of poo.  Maybe it’s swine flu.

I left work early to come home and crash, which I actually did for once.  Usually when I say I’ll do that I end up either on the computer or watching tv.  Today I slept.  And slept.  And slept.  And had a weird dream.

I was hanging out with this guy like we were dating.  I remember laying with him on a bed and talking and then kissing.  Then he asks me if I want to screw but I told him I couldn’t because I was having my period.  Which I am so it makes sense.  Then I remember him talking to someone on a video phone and he must have been Philipino or something because he was speaking in some sort of Asian language to this person and the person on the phone looked Asian.  And then his nieces and nephews were running in and out of the house.  The house, by the way, was my ex-boyfriends’.  And then my ex walks in to the house and gets mad that I’m there.  So after awkwardly collecting my things and explaining this to my new “friend” I fast forward to being at work.  Keep in mind that I work in a child care center.  I see my new “friend” walk into one of the classrooms and I ask a co-worker about him and ask how old he is. 

“Oh, him?  He’s 3.”

Great, so now instead of gay sailor James Bond dreams I am now having dreams about making out with 3 year old Philipino boys in my ex-boyfriends’ house.  Wonderful. 

And in my defense, he looked like he was over 18.

Weird dreams

Ok, so lately I have been having some pretty "out there" kind of dreams. I don't remember them all but I just remember them being weird. Last nights' dream was no exception. I don't remember all the details but it was, from my faint memory of it, a James Bond movie. The new ones, with my next husband, Daniel Craig.

Isn't he dreamy? I think so.

So, back to the dream. He was James Bond, of course, but I don't remember being in the dream, rather I was just watching it. Anyway he was undercover as a gay sailor. And he played the part quite well. I was actually dreaming of him with some guy. It was X rated. I was a little disturbed when I woke up. I mean who wouldn't be after dreaming that their next husband was gay???

I don't know what is giving me all these weirds dreams but they are definitely interesting to say the least.

Let the testing begin!

Hello, My Love,

My period started today and with it a slew of testing shall commence. I had to call the fertility center to let them know my cycle started and to schedule my Day 3 bloodwork and sonogram. I was surprised to see my period start so soon. My cycle was wacky and I'm not so sure I ovulated, which would be a first. Fertility Friend (www.fertilityfriend.com) didn't show ovulation but I did have the CM (cervical mucus) that says I did and I took a few OPK (ovulation predictors) which showed I did so who knows? This was the first month I used a basal thermometer so maybe that's it. Oh well.

My bloodwork will be done on Friday at 7:15 am and then I also have my HSG scheduled for Monday at 2:30. Your dad is calling to schedule his SA (semen analysis) today or tomorrow so hopefully that will be done soon. I have no idea how we are going to be able to afford all of this testing but somehow, we will. The money aspect of this whole thing has been the biggest stress point for your father.

I started having infertility dreams. I started spotting last night and knowing that I had to call to schedule my testing, I had dreams about it this morning before my alarm went off. In my dream I was at the doctor's office and they were scheduling me for ovulation iduction at some office far away. They were calling it ovulation induction but it was really egg harvesting. It took me a minute to realize that that meant we were doing IVF and that we didn't want to do that yet. Weird dream.

I joined a gym this week. I am going to be 30 (YIKES!) in January and I've decided that I can't change that but I can change how I look. I don't want to get any fatter. So, my goal is to look fabulous by the time I'm 30. I have to get older. I don't have to be fat. Now, I'm doing something about it. I met with a personal trainer (I get three sessions with my membership) and went over my diet, my exercise, my goals, etc. I have my first workout on Friday after work. My trainer was pretty cute, so I'm looking forward to working out...;o) I didn't feel so cute when he was measuring my body fat with those pinchy things though....

Crazy dreams and forward progress

Hello, My Love,

So, occasionally I have some weird dreams but rarely do I remember them past waking up. Well, I know I had a crazy one last night and completely forgot about it until I saw a commercial for Mucinex just now. It has these blobby looking things of snot that talk and walk and move into your lungs...gross, right?

Well, seeing that big blob of snot reminded me of the dream I had. Most of the dream was about a bicycle race with me and your dad against another couple but the part that the commercial reminded me of was when I coughed up a HUGE blob of mucus. It was disgusting. I make slime for the kids at my work using liquid starch and glue and that is what it looked like. I remember holding it in my hands and being grossed out and fascinated at the same time. Weird stuff.

I got my referral in the mail the other day so I called the fertility clinic and made an appointment. We are going in this coming Friday at 8:30 am. They are supposed to mail us some paperwork to fill out which we'll bring with us as well as our previous test results. This first appointment is a basic consultation but it finally feels like we are making some forward progress.