Hurry up and wait

Hello, My Love,

This morning was agonizing. I thought it would never be time for me to leave for my appointment. Plus, it was snowing and I was afraid they would shut the office down. I just kept looking at the clock and crossed my fingers it would stop snowing . But, finally, the time came and I left work to make my way to the doctor's. On the way, I talked to your dad and he surprised me and said he was on his way to the appointment and needed the address. Needless to say, I was very happy he was going to be there with me.

So, after all the paperwork, the weigh in, height check, urine sample, talking and all that routine stuff, it was time for the exam. I expected her to check my ta-tas and nether reigons but a finger in the pooper, I did NOT! Hello! Nice to meet you! I'm hoping that was a one time thing.

She started with an abdominal ultrasound and could definitely see a sac with a little blob in it. You were very small so she did a vaginal ultrasound to see if she could get a heartbeat. We could see your fetal pole but could not hear your heartbeat. She said that you were measuring small but it could be that I conceived later than I thought. She was also concerned that she didn't see the blood flowing around your heart. On the ultrasound there are different colors that show up where the blood flows and she couldn't get any colors to show up around your heart. But I definitely saw it flickering. As of right now, you are alive. Please stay that way.



My original appointment was supposed to be next Friday, the 13th and now I am going back for a follow up on the same day. I also had blood drawn today and am going back this Friday to have it drawn again to make sure my HCG numbers are doubling.

So now we wait. Again. I guess that's the way it's going to go for the next 7 months. If I'm lucky. I am part Irish....