Tuesday, February 10, 2009

The day after

Yesterday was cold, dark and dismal. Today was warm (well, warmer anyway), sunny and still pretty dismal.

Yesterday was painful: emotionally and physically. Today was the same.

Yesterday I indulged (fine, OVER indulged) in food I avoided for the past 5 weeks or so. Today, I still indulged but threw in a few healthy items to make myself feel better about eating the bad stuff.

Yesterday I could hardly face the world. Today, I had to and it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be.

Yesterday the thought of being around other people's children brought tears to my eyes. Today, I had to go to work and be around other people's children and was surprised that they were the only things that made me smile.

Yesterday was hard. Today was too. Not as hard as yesterday, but hard nonetheless.

On a side note, can I just say how much I HATE HATE HATE maxi pads? I don't think I've worn one since I was a teenager and for whatever reason I don't think I'm supposed to use tampons while my uterus is on "self clean" so I am stuck using maxi pads. I feel like I'm wearing a diaper. And to top it all off, it leaked. So, and I'm not sure for how long, I've been walking around with a nice red dot on my butt. I probably should have bought Always or something similar but I didn't feel like having a "happy period" so I bought the cheap store brand. Serves me right I suppose.

1 comment:

Monty said...

Sending you lots of love!

I hate pads too - UGH! So frustrating. You are right, you shouldn't use tampons. You could get an infection.

I'm glad being around the kids wasn't hard. Keep taking it a day at a time.

I still cannot believe this happened to you. It's just not right! Big hugs from far away!!