The Waiting Room

Hello, My Love,

It looks like I get to see you sooner than we thought. My doctor wants me to come in next week (on Wednesday 2/4) rather than in two weeks (on Friday 2/13). I really hope I get to see you. I'm not sure if I can handle it if you weren't in there anymore. Think positive thoughts, right?

Your dad won't be able to make it to this appointment unfortunately. I'm sad and hurt but he has to work and can't (or won't) get out of it. I really wanted him to be there for this first appointment. I didn't care about him making it for any other appointment but this one was the BIG one. The one that really mattered. We've worked so hard and waited so long to get to this point and he chooses work. He said he doesn't appreciate the guilt trip I've given him (I am guilty there) and that he really wants to be there but he has to work that day. He can't get out of it. I think, more than anything, I want him there in case we get bad news. I don't think I can hear it alone.