Hello, My Love,
This is it! It happened!
I AM PREGNANT!
I almost didn't believe that the test actually said, "Pregnant."
But it did! As soon as I saw it I just fell to the bathroom floor and started crying. I was in utter disbelief. Part of me still is. I don't think it will truly set in until I see your heart beating on that first ultrasound. And that isn't until February 13th. Which also happens to be Friday the 13th. Your dad joked that we should name you Mike Meyers. Well, I think we've had our share of bad luck for awhile and we shouldn't be worried. But, to be honest, I'm scared to death.
I've been watching by blood sugar like a hawk but it's been really hard to control. I plan to make an appointment with a nutritionist and it's probably a good idea to check in with my endocrinologist as well. I bought a book that gives you the carbs for almost every food imaginable plus fast foods so that will better help me calculate the amount of carbs I'm eating.
Your dad is so excited. He has told almost everyone he's come in contact with, a little to my dismay. I wanted to wait until we saw your heartbeat and were a little further along but he had other ideas. Now everyone knows. I haven't told work yet and don't plan to until at least 12 weeks, unless something comes up where I have to.
So far I don't really have any symptoms other than being more tired than usual and peeing a lot. But, it's pretty early so I'm sure they're bound to make an appearance soon. Bring it on, I say! I've waited so long to get to this point that I don't care what mother nature throws at me. I will get through it knowing that I will see you soon. You are worth it. Even though you're just a little dot of cells, I love you. I love the person you will become.
Your grandparents are also very excited. My mom teared up when we told her. When we went over their house for Christmas she joked that the best Christmas card picture (we take one every year) will be when there is a grandchild in it. Well, she got her wish! You are due on September 19, 2009. I'm pretty sure I will deliver earlier than that because of my diabetes and the fact that most babies of diabetic mommies are rather large, but we'll see.
I'm sure the next nine months will fly by but I really want to stop and smell the roses because I may or may not get to experience this again. I want to remember everything and so I am thankful for starting this blog. Not only for myself but for you to read when you are older. I want you to know how much you were wanted and how much you were (and are!) loved and everything we went through just to get to you.
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