I'm fine. Thanks for asking!

Hello, My Love,

Ok, so I'm already in a bad mood since AF started but tack on working two jobs in one day and I'm a total crab. Plus, some people are just so inconsiderate of other people. At the baby superstore, I work at the registry desk so I greet a lot of people who come in the store. I always say "Hi! How are you?" Every so often they'll say "Fine and you?" But not too often. Usually I'll get a "Hi" back or just get ignored. How difficult is it to say "Hello. I'm fine and yourself?" It doesn't take much effort to acknowledge my existence. I'm a nice person. What really gets me is when I say hello and ask how they are doing and all they say is the name of the person for whose registry they want printed. Like I'm a robot or something. Please speak loud and clear into the microphone!

As far as you are concerned, I think we are heading towards an IUI (Intra Uterine Insemination). I need to see what (if any) my insurance covers. From my reading, I believe an IUI is when they take the sperm, clean it up and use a catheter to place it at the base of my fallopian tubes so it has less traveling to do. I know that some people also do follicle stimulation to produce more eggs along with the IUI but I seem to have no problems ovulating. Although, we would love to have twins, so we'll see. I need to call my doctor tomorrow and set up an appointment and see where we go from here. I hate driving 30 minutes to visit this guy but he's good and I don't feel like switching doctors just yet. Once I'm pregnant I will look for an OB close to home. I'll have to find one that deals with high risk pregnancies as your mom has diabetes. I'm doing my best to keep my blood sugar under control while we are trying but it's hard. I love sweets!

I'm pooped!

Hello, My Love,

Last week was so busy I think my body is still tired from everything. I worked both jobs on Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday and then threw a baby shower on Saturday. Friday night I spent cooking and cleaning and that trickled over to Saturday as well. I was putting make up on as the first guest arrived. Talk about cutting it close. All in all it was a huge success. I give myself a huge pat on the back for that. My friend said everyone loved it so I was pleased. Of course the question of when am I having kids came up several times but I didn't really feel like getting into anything so I just kept saying, "Soon, I hope." And my friend who knows about my situation was doing it too! I couldn't believe it. It's like she was rubbing her baby belly right in my face saying "When are you getting pregnant? Huh?" I know she meant no harm but it hurt all the same. It definitely wasn't the easiest of days for someone facing infertility but I got through it and I'm glad she enjoyed it.

I've been so exhausted lately. I don't know if it's because I've been working too much and pushing myself too hard or if it's from not getting enough sleep or what but I feel like a zombie sometimes. I could fall asleep at the drop of a hat if I wanted to. Who knows, maybe I'm pregnant? I doubt it. Wishful thinking.

Parents say the darndest things

Hello, My Love,

It's going to be a busy week. I work both jobs Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday and then have my friend's shower on Saturday. Throw in cleaning, laundry and cooking for the shower and I'm beat. Luckily we had a relaxing weekend. Well, as much as possible considering I worked both Saturday and Sunday.

Saturday night we went over a friend's house and had a few drinks and sat in their hot tub. They are both really nice and we like getting together with them. They have a son who is almost a year old...such a beautiful boy. While we were all in the hot tub we were talking about some show that they watch with their son. The mom was trying to explain it to us and then said, "Oh they wouldn't understand. They're not parents." I know she meant no harm whatsoever but it stung nonetheless. Who knew such an arbitrary comment could hurt so much. Needless to say, I was ready to go home after that. I can only tolerate so much talk about other people's kids when I have nothing to contribute. And I so want to contribute. I want to tell them all about the funny thing you did in the bathtub the other day or the weird face you made when trying a new food. But alas, I must wait.

Pictures...finally!

Hello, My Love,

Here are the pictures I've been saying I would add. I'm not the best photographer but I think they turned out ok. You can't really tell, but the hat is light yellow with white "feathers." I call it the Big Bird hat.
I'm not too crazy about this one. It looks too 70's or something.

Just a red hat.
This yarn is so soft. Love this hat.
I made your dad a hat out of the same yarn. If he hasn't lost it then you'll have matching hats.
This is more of a beanie...didn't make it long enough.
The sherbet hat.

Nothing really special about this one.
One of my favorites....so very soft and green...my favorite color.
I like the colors in the yarn.
Don't really like this one either. Too loose.
I like this one a lot...kinda punk rock.

A burp cloth...love the fabric.
This is one for my friend's baby.
Haven't decided if I'll give this one to her or keep it...probably keep it.
Just another hat...
You can't really see the colors of this hat very well but it's a light celery green and an iredecent purple...so pretty. I made it for my cousin's baby but never got around to send it to him.

Burp cloths I made for our neighbors. Your dad is building a cabinet for them and they just had a baby girl who they aptly named Kate. So my little tag worked in their favor.
A blanket I crocheted for you. It's been so long since I made it I don't even remember how to crochet now.
The blanket I'm making for my friend's baby. It matches the crib set perfectly. Can't wait to see it finished.
A scarf I started last winter. It has little beads in the yarn. Again...can't wait to see it finished. Hopefully I will finish it before this winter comes!
This one I'm keeping. I have a thing for pirates and skulls...lol.

Well, that's about it. I have another couple of blankets I'm working on but there's not much to them yet. As you can probably tell, I have a habit of starting projects and not finishing them. I have knitters ADD. I have to finish that baby blanket for my friend though. Her shower is next weekend!

Feeling crafty

Hello, My Love,



I don't really have anything interesting to write about but felt like writing anyway. The new job is going great. I really like it there. I've been good about riding my bike to work 2-3 times per week. It's 3.25 miles there so I'm getting some much needed exercise. I can already fit into the shorts I bought last summer that were a too tight earlier this summer. Very encouraging. And as far as gas, I've been using a half tank of gas each week. A far departure from the full tank to a tank and a half I was using. My wallet really likes that.

So, I'm throwing a baby shower for one of my best friends in a few weeks. I'm not much into the traditional baby blue/baby pink theme so I took the colors from the crib bedding she picked out (aqua blue and a sea green) and went from there. I did buy a few "It's a boy" decorations just because you have to have a few. I think I'm all set for games and prizes so I just need to figure out what to have for food. I've been knitting a baby blanket for the baby that will match the crib set, which I bought for her. I'll post some pictures soon. I just hope I can finish it before the shower. I've also been making burp cloths. They're pretty simple to make and I think they look pretty nice. Over the past year or so I've also knitted some baby hats, both of which I should post pictures of. I made them for you....I'm hoping you'll wear them someday.

Another month bites the dust

Hello, My Love,

Well, yet another month down the tubes. I'm so frustrated. And to top it all off it was a short cycle this month...only 24 days. Annoying. I don't know what else to do. I've run out of ideas. Nothing works. Will we ever be together? It's not looking good. Everyone around me is having babies and second babies. I just want you. I just want you now. Where are you?

My butt hurts!

Hello, My Love,

Not that you want to hear about my rear end, but man oh man does my tush hurt! I've started riding my bike to work and it's day number two and I feel like I've got a big bruise under each cheek. I even got a bigger seat with gel padding but I guess I'll just have to get used to it. I do feel good about the exercise I'm getting. I bought a speedometor/odometer to see how fast I'm going/how far I'm riding. I'm guessing about 3 miles so a total of 6 miles a day. I can feel the burn in my thighs. Pretty soon I'll have the nice legs I had 10 years ago. I also feel good about sparing the earth all the pollutents from my car and of course I feel great about not spending money on gas! I put $20 (half a tank for me) in my car on Sunday. With my previous job I would have needed to put more in by now. I'm curious to see how long it will last me.

I should be ovulating soon and I feel excited about this cycle. I think the vitamins your dad has been taking are having positive effects on him. I am anxious about this cycle. I have this vision of seeing those two beautiful lines. Those two lines are like a dream that I hope will soon come true.

Well, gotta get to Home Depot to get some compost, a bin and a hose reel. I'm starting a compost bin for the garden. I'll have to post some pictures soon.